(Notes From A FB Live Sept 24 2018 ~ Click to Watch)

For many years a pocket full of change made me feel RICH and gave me safety like nothing else could. It was my “Linus Security Blanket” in life.

I remember being asked about it when I was working in my government job making good money. My partner had noticed that I would have a wee panic attack in the morning when I got ready to go to work if I didn’t have some change to put in my pocket. I could have a big fat wad of paper money but it wasn’t enough. I needed the change.

It was something I got curious about and explored back in my past to what was driving it. When I was as young as 12 I would “drop dimes” in order to give strangers blessings. It was my way of giving back to the world because even at an extremely young age I was grateful to have been born in Canada.

Then as a single parent of 2 we were poor I had developed a strategy to stretch the meager money I received each month. I would pay for absolutely everything with paper money at the beginning of each month and collect the change. When the paper money ran out, I had a bowl full of change I could ration to pay for the staples. As my financial situation improved and I had money in the bank and could use my debit card, I knew I was going to be okay because I still had change in my pocket.

The other day when we went to dance class and were at the meter paying for parking I reached into my pocket but it was missing! I was wearing yoga pants. I looked through my purse and had 1 quarter. I felt a mild twinge of unease and realized that I was out in the world living my life without my safety net. I stood for a minute and marveled at the magnitude of my healing.

How miraculous is it that today my safety lies within me. That I have trust in my own self to keep me safe. That today I know I am going to be okay because I am me and I have strategies in place to keep me safe. My friends, meditation, learning, exercise, nutrition are my new spiritual “pocket full of change.” Just love!

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