(Notes from FB Live Sept 12 2018 ~ Click to Watch)

Since I did my results post yesterday, I have been in a heavy reflection mode. I was thinking about how much I have changed, healed. About my self worth and how completely different it is today compared to 10 years ago when I was in my darkest time. Or five years ago when I came into the sunshine for moments before ducking back into the shadows. Or last year when I was pushing boundaries of self by getting back into business mode and trying new challenges.

I look into myself today and I see my future self. Confident. Secure. Having a solid understanding about why I am doing what I am doing in life. I see myself looking at myself in the mirror – which is still so challenging – and liking who I see simply because I know that I am who I am how I am and I am enough.

I remember the first time I did a vision board in 2015 and one of the 21 “spots” I chose to fill was with a picture of me, attributes of who I am from a variety of sources such as Scorpio, and Dragon, and Love Language “Words of Affirmation,” and Strength Finders 5 strengths and Myers Briggs ENFP etc.

A few years ago I had a spiritual crisis and didn’t know how to be alive as me anymore. I was so confused because I was through my dark times and yet had gone back to “that” place. I locked myself in a hotel room and refused to come out until I figured it out. I was lost. I decided to just go analytical and simply went with what the world said I was and gathered facts positive and negative. Scorpio, Dragon, ENFP etc.

I put them in a spreadsheet. I wrote them on post-it notes and put them on the wall. I wrote them with marker on a floor to ceiling brown paper. I stepped back and gasped. I wanted to be that person! Wait.. I AM that person!

The only thing stopping me was my own limiting beliefs about myself. I needed to CLAIM who I am and let go of who others think I should be. So freeing!! And so I set my determination and keep my eye on the prize and head down I am patiently and consistently finding my core. Smile.

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