(Notes From a FB Live Sept 8 2018 ~ Click to Watch)

Last night a bag of clothes made me cry! Real tears and everything! I have never been very good at receiving from others. And then as I was on my healing journey and studying why that is because I certainly get an enormous amount of pleasure out of giving to others and do it often.

I discovered that in my past, when some people gave me things or did things for me it then obligated me to them and forced me to do things I didn’t want to do. And because I lived in “when you are happy I am safe” I didn’t know how to stand up for myself. It was so interesting for me to uncover this because I now had a visible enemy and could do something to change it!

I have 2 really important events coming up in the next 2 weeks. I am in my first wedding party in Los Vegas and am going to a formal awards ceremony and convention for my new business! Both have elements of formal wear and I have a closet full of jeans and harley t shirts! Not only that but I still have some pretty significant insecurities about myself and hate shopping. And I don’t even know what my style is as I haven’t had much experience dressing up!!

I remember when I was going for a job interview in Toronto and had my daughter who was then 11 years old pick out my clothes!

My friend and workout partner Leah is a couple sizes smaller than me. Last night she invited me over to her place and we spent an hour going through her closets. She was on a mission to set me up! As she went through her clothes and I handed me items to try on she taught me how to mix and match clothes. AND she gave me a bag full that don’t fit her any more – but they fit me!

Results of the little daily discipline of monitoring what we are eating and getting some exercise. Reward! She got the pleasure of seeing her results in shift after pants after even boots that are too big. I was blessed with a bag full of clothes that fit and are stylish. I will never forget that moment. Love you Leah!

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